Finally, im willing to update my blog & also post my blog site at Facebook =^^= ~W3lcom3 R3@ders~
Now im sitting in a new place, a new life that brings me back to study life but yet a total different study life that i had lived in the pass...maybe now someone is reading my blog finding out so many grammars mistake, please forgive me, im still poor in english & still working on it to get it better just for the course that i taken^^.
From now on i have to work hard on my studies & my living. I have moved out from my home to kampar, staying here for the rest of 3 years to finish my course. The course im taking was Public Relation. Kinda surprise to myself & some of my friends. Before that i study in science stream, thought that in the future i will be like my dad working in the lab or in this field, total opposite to PR course because pr are required to interact with social but not science like u only have to explain whats your creation o result to people or even stay in the lab interact with the substance. Until my stpm result came out showing that i cant get into local U, i feel despair, going for appeal for the paper that i fail, fail; going for appeal to get in ipta, fail. That I feel even hopeless & i cry.....i wanted to go study & try the life in U desperately at that moment & i tell to my dad what i feel.
My dad, giving me the 2nd chance to study again & i come over here to apply courses...During fill up course choices in form, i put PR as the first choice & the rest is science related subject. Of course, Utar gave me my first choice but i started to regret what i have chosen. I was worried whether i can cope with it & finish this course to get an degree cert. So, i asking opinions around from friends that taking this course, they all telling me that english language must be very good (That why im writing in english on my blog, training!training!...keke) & have to communicate with people.....i was thinking...what the....how am i gonna do it?! Have to give presentation in front all of people only makes my body non-stop shaking & talking just like i am standing in cold water...><...
Thinking of quit too. Maybe it was my life style has been change rather work than study that will not earn money and also the wrong choice that i think was made.....Still, i choose to study....what to do...my dad had paid all the fee & now my study mood starts coming back....have to study now....Here now in the room just only me (i rent single room) felt alone after my dear drop me & when back to singapore to work...have to living with stranger...suspicious mind becoming sensitive when 1 guy laugh after he saw me...my mind keep thinking is it they use me as their jokes during dinner or i look silly when i intro myself to one of them? Really hope that they are not playing fools...
From now on i have to work hard on my studies & my living. I have moved out from my home to kampar, staying here for the rest of 3 years to finish my course. The course im taking was Public Relation. Kinda surprise to myself & some of my friends. Before that i study in science stream, thought that in the future i will be like my dad working in the lab or in this field, total opposite to PR course because pr are required to interact with social but not science like u only have to explain whats your creation o result to people or even stay in the lab interact with the substance. Until my stpm result came out showing that i cant get into local U, i feel despair, going for appeal for the paper that i fail, fail; going for appeal to get in ipta, fail. That I feel even hopeless & i cry.....i wanted to go study & try the life in U desperately at that moment & i tell to my dad what i feel.
My dad, giving me the 2nd chance to study again & i come over here to apply courses...During fill up course choices in form, i put PR as the first choice & the rest is science related subject. Of course, Utar gave me my first choice but i started to regret what i have chosen. I was worried whether i can cope with it & finish this course to get an degree cert. So, i asking opinions around from friends that taking this course, they all telling me that english language must be very good (That why im writing in english on my blog, training!training!...keke) & have to communicate with people.....i was thinking...what the....how am i gonna do it?! Have to give presentation in front all of people only makes my body non-stop shaking & talking just like i am standing in cold water...><...
Thinking of quit too. Maybe it was my life style has been change rather work than study that will not earn money and also the wrong choice that i think was made.....Still, i choose to study....what to do...my dad had paid all the fee & now my study mood starts coming back....have to study now....Here now in the room just only me (i rent single room) felt alone after my dear drop me & when back to singapore to work...have to living with stranger...suspicious mind becoming sensitive when 1 guy laugh after he saw me...my mind keep thinking is it they use me as their jokes during dinner or i look silly when i intro myself to one of them? Really hope that they are not playing fools...
Arrrggghhh....GOD!!! Please help!!!
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