My Blog has grow dust

A Sigh for me! I abandoned my Blog for a long time(It has been covered by dust). Well, have to clean it up & continue updating(if Im not lazy....Sorry!). Mmm, been lost for quite some time. I have lost my life direction, should say I don't own one. I thought that becoming a flight attendant is always I aiming for. Somehow, it changed. My spine was born in a curve shape. Although is not a serious curve, I was being rejected by Singapore Airline from becoming their Singapore Girl. My heart sank when I get the notice. I haven't consult any doctors because of my financial difficulties. So, I keep working to earn for it. As time goes by, my dream eventually getting shallow. "Maybe it doesn't, maybe is me staying too comfort in my current condition that's why it is becoming shallow", this is how I remind myself everytime I wanted to give up. I have facing with some difficulties during working. Is just all about communications. I worked as a waitress in a fine dining. Is very hard for me because is my first time in touch with new field. Eventually, I left there because is not what I want. Doubts in my mind made me confuse about connections with waitress & flight attendants. I find myself is a weak person but I want to prove it that I am not. I was confuse so I keep asking for advise from elders, my friends & my boyfriend. Then, I decided to left the restaurant. I couldn't fall in love with my job.

Numb-mind right now, doesn't know where to continue my story. My head is rushing with thoughts. I wish readers won't get confuse. Right now, I am looking for job that I will enjoy. I like to learn & I am going to take up some yoga training or even dancing to relief stress. I also will go for handmade classes. I will go back from basic, then slowly upgrade. This is what I know to do.